AM: Body feels like I slept underneath bag of bricks. Sit up in bed. Immediately stress eat muffin. Stare at self in mirror for 10 min just staring. Who is that guy? This is day before wedding. All the final thoughts are flooding. Eat more muffin. Older brother goes into older brother mode and acts as care taker of my day. Set up tables at church. Set up decoration things. All is a blur. Seconds slip by faster. So real so real so real so real.
PM: Rehearsal. For my wedding. We are having wedding rehearsal for my wedding where I will marry my dream woman best friend. Fiance is stuck with me forever and ever amen. Thank God. We are all smelly and tired from setting up. But we are in the chapel. We are practicing being husband and wife instead of just fiance and fiance. So many hugs happening. Rehearsal dinner. Fiance looks stunning. Family and friends gather. Older brother gives best man speech and we are all crying. I can’t make eye contact when he makes eye contact. Tears. Laughter. Love-filled deep-hearted tears. So much said even in pauses of silence. More speeches more tears and laughter. Running out of tissues. Don’t deserve these amazing people. Eat BBQ ribs and cakes. Drink one beer and feel like I’m 4 deep. Thanking and hugging. Rinse & repeat. Local brewery with a bunch of friends. Can’t believe all these people would come for us. Drink half a beer. So exhausted. Hotel to sleep. Older brother feeds me pizza rolls as last supper. Final night as Unmarried Bachelor Fiance Paul. Goodbye Unmarried Bachelor Paul. Hello Husband Paul. Hello Joyful Paul. Thank you God for this amazing woman. My wife.
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